Well, live and learn I guess. Since you decided to share your problems with the entire planet, I'll feel free to wade in with my opinion. I couldn't understand all of the trouble because I didn't want to fight my way through the lack of sentence structure, punctuation or capitalization. If I put what I know of you (admittedly, not much) in my crystal ball and shake it, I don't give you a good chance of making it into a useful adult. That seems hard, but that's what live and learn is about. If you look through the history of people that got sidetracked along the road of life, you would see many similarities to where you are right now. There's not one day where you suddenly start doing things that will benefit your future prospects.
While I think kids are kids and I certainly did my share of stupid things, I would be remiss if I were to let stupid things go on around me if I can help it. If you are going to act stupid, at least be smarter about it. Your parents aren't going to try and control you, obviously, so you are going to have to do it yourself. Start taking pride in yourself. You're much smarter than you are acting.
I'm also from a small town--in Iowa. One of my friends was killed riding with her cousin who tried to beat a train. I lost another who got in a fight at a party, raced off in his car and head-on'd a woman. Innocent events have a way of letting the devil out. You go from a sunny day to standing in a field trying to figure out the moment that you might have intervened in a way that would have kept your best friend out of a hole in the cold ground.