Depression....

[bobbywalter]

I was almost married. Almost had a kid. She got an abortion against my wishes because she didnt want to be with me in any way. How bad must you be that a woman gets an abortion because she doesn't want the kid to be associated with me?

i thought that was normal too.....i was a bit of a sociopath from 15-19.... i would not have wanted children with me....any rational yet adventurous female just would have only had me around as a dangerous playtoy....


suicide i found intolerable in the hubris of youth.

but if someone is withered away and facing certain doom under constant misery, i dont hold the same opinions i did in the past.

otoh.... offing yourself because you do stupid shit all of the time is just being a pussy.

combined with medications and other forms of entertainment...depression has taken many of my friends the last 30 years in various ways...intended and unintended.....the unintended is the kind that hurts the most....just get a bit careless and drift away...gone


but. i try to respect to each their own whenever possible.

 

[bobbywalter]

dont

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nyquil.....


actually......that makes sense. your trippin balls all of the time. that shit is dangerous.

 

[RangerFabWorks]

I’ve been battling depression since I was 14. Attempted to take my life a few times. Never have a good image of myself. I’m constantly worrying about what others think about me. I get super sensitive if someone says something to me. I constantly over think.
Being married to my wife of 5 years now has helped. But I still have my super low days.

Recently was diagnosed with Wolff Parkinson’s white syndrome. Underwent a catheter ablation. Wasn’t successful sadly. Doctor isn’t sure if another procedure will cure me of if I have to live with the symptoms. Ended up having my license revoked for several months. And lost my job. Thankfully I’ve gotten my license back and I’m employed again. But had some rough patches there. In the middle of my health episodes. (Me and my wife live above my 2 aunts) in back in April I came downstairs to find my one aunt dead. Watched the EMTS cut her clothes off and try to revive her. And then watched her carried out naked. A vision that I really didn’t need. Fast forward to last month. Me and my wife get away for a week to go on a cruise. Come home to find my other aunt had a massive heart attack and wound up with 4 stents and 50% heart function. Plus find out the house is in foreclosure. And the court has a date of December 1st to lock the house up. So we’re battling that in court.

not to mention all the bullshit drama and money I lost trying to move to Florida (which ended horribly)

yeah. I get depression.

 

[bobbywalter]

definitely some tough sledding there widow.... but that is what happens when you put chevy shit in fords.....

ya gotts to buck up and ride er out...seems your an asshole like me. pull up a chair. throw a log on the fire.

 

[RangerFabWorks]

definitely some tough sledding there widow.... but that is what happens when you put chevy shit in fords.....

ya gotts to buck up and ride er out...seems your an asshole like me. pull up a chair. throw a log on the fire.

that’s certified ass hat to you there Bobby

 

[bobbywalter]

yeah....i am good with that.

 

[85_Ranger4x4]

I was almost married. Almost had a kid. She got an abortion against my wishes because she didnt want to be with me in any way. How bad must you be that a woman gets an abortion because she doesn't want the kid to be associated with me?

Hormones are crazy things... don't discount them.

Things like birth control can cause bad reactions... pregnancy hormones can be a rough ride too.

 

[Jim Oaks]

Suicide hurts the ones you love, the ones that love you, and the ones that care more then you probably realize. It's a pain that never truly goes away for them.

 

[85_Ranger4x4]

Suicide hurts the ones you love, the ones that love you, and the ones that care more then you probably realize. It's a pain that never truly goes away for them.

+1

 

[Ranger850]

I was virtually depression free until october 21 a few years ago when my stepmother passed away. She's the one who made my dad give me the Ranger and is the reason i want to get it running. She passed unexpectedly and i think i have ptsd because of her passing so quickly. Never been diagnosed by a doctor but anxiety, depression, and spirals into darkness every since she has been gone. Sometimes when I'm tooling around with the Ranger i get a little teary eyed and have to walk away. If it wasnt for her, who knows where my Ranger would be.

 

[Snoranger]

We're one big (dysfunctional) family here...

Dirt. If you need to talk, I can be there in about 20 minutes.

 

[sgtsandman]

I've had it in the past. A good group of friends will do wonders to pull you out of the hole and know when to stop busting your chops until then.

 

[Jim Oaks]

We're one big (dysfunctional) family here...

Maybe we need to have another trail ride, and call it the TRS Dysfunctional Ranger Roundup.

 

[Snoranger]

Maybe we need to have another trail ride, and call it the TRS Dysfunctional Ranger Roundup.

I'll stop and pick up Dirtman on the way out there.

 

[racsan]

the last 3 years have been rough for me, I have considered “checking out” but yes I know about affecting those left behind. days have been getting better, always enjoy “coming here” and was good to put some faces with the names back in sept. No I didnt do the trail ride, my current ranger only being a 2wd and we didnt sleep that great in the back of the truck that night. was still a good time and would do it again. Maybe I need to find a 4wd ranger chassis and toss this escape body on it. Im not a big talker about my issues, but I’ll talk about my ranger on and on to a perfect stranger if they ask about it. This post has me thinking about doorgunner again. Often wonder about him and hope he is ok.